My year as a blogger

I've written 129 posts in the past year.

Not as many as most of the other blogs I read but, certainly enough that I can think of myself as a blogger.

I really like having this space, yet I still struggle with it as well.

It's been hard to find the right balance of capturing the day to day, my emotional ups and downs, my goals and plans, things I love, things that annoy me... basically, my life.

I read a lot of blogs, and I spend too much time on Facebook and I've noticed how many different ways people can use these social media tools. But of all of them, there are three main ones:

Some people present perfection. You know who they are. Their child is a gifted, precious angel who does no wrong and surpasses every milestone and accomplishment. Their spouse/significant other is engaged, involved and always helpful. They take fabulous trips, have great new gadgets and just exude this aura of the good life.

Then there are the complainers. The drama queens whose posts and status updates are all 'woe is me' and 'my life sucks' and 'why do bad things only happen to me.' All. the. time. They want attention. They want reassurance. They don't want you to point out just how first world their problems really are.

And finally, there are the people that never say much of anything, or at least nothing original. Their digital presence revolves around reposting and reblogging the words of others.

I'm not any of those people. I am certainly not living in a perfect world. And a drama queen is far from an accurate description. And I've got my own words to share for sure. I've tried to strike a balance of all of the above I'd say. I don't want this space to turn into a whiny, unhappy place so I really do try to accentuate the positive, but still not completely eliminate the negative.

I want this to be a place where I can just be honest, be myself. I so admire so many of the blogs I read where the blogger just puts it all out there. The good and the bad. The hard times and the happy ones. I've certainly managed some of that, but a lot of times I hold back from writing what's truly on my mind because I worry about the reaction from those real life readers.

While I don't have any actual new year's resolutions, I do have a few goals for this space in 2013:

1. A post a day during January
2. More posting in general. I had 129 posts in 2012 so I think I'll aim for 150 in 2013. 
3. More writing what's on my mind, even when my mind is in an unhappy place.

Here's to one year down and many more to go.